~ I am not a loner, I am just in love with solitude ~
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B'day Run, Day 1 ~

Day 1 :

Trip Odo: 450kms
From: Gurgaon To: 60kms before Ajmer.

It was undecided where I'd head to. I had jotted down itenary for 10 locations in a radius of 1200kms.

I also wanted to go somewhere I'd not gone before.

While I was browsing thru the web an advertisement that talked about Udaipur, Mount Abu, struck me.

I immediately googled and chalked out a rough map.

I got late and left at around 7, slogging thru gurgaon traffic up until the rewari cut.

Trance music blasting my ears, with no worries on my mind. Highway was my home.

I vroomed my way to my favourite spot. I get goosebumps everytime I see this stretch and I fall out of words to describe how I feel.

After that it was a bliss, scenic landscape and pot hole free roads. I covered alwar, dausa, jaipur, met Saurabh after about 10 months. I had last met him at Rohit's wedding.

I left for Ajmer, while I was on my way. I saw something I never saw before, roadside. Restroom, spotless to perfection. I hail rajasthan govt. for making them and maintaining them.

In the background are the restrooms on th go.

While I moved on, I was again taken by surprise. I saw a truck drivers lodge, owned and maintained by a renowned packers and movers company.

The welcome starts by washing feet of the drivers, they then have a saloon for shave, haircut and massage. Then they have shelter for overnite abode. ALL FREE. Delicious sumptuous meal at super low price and not to mention, great company of local people who come from different parts of India and have great stories to tell.

I sat down and relaxed with a glass of amazing tea and Parle-G.

There was a small ditch filled with water for irrigation and I saw these two romancing. I couldnt help but to imagine the story.

Bird on the left imagined to be the shy male gathering courage to talk to her love.

Finally buckles up to talk :)

Sun was about to set and I wanted to put up the tent for that perfect click.

I had to seek permission to put up my tent as they insisted me to stay in the lodge that was well equipped with ultra modern facilities. But after a while they said YES.

                                                                       

The day turned into dusk and I clicked some picture and spoke to some dear friends.

Someone truly said "Happiness is only complete, when shared".

After which I sat down with the caretaker and a couple of drivers and we exchanged views different hot topics.

I met, Rajesh, from gujurat. Anna from Mumbai. Ravinder from Punjab. They all drove trucks on highways with hillarious messages painted at the rear end.

Discussion varied from "Why I travel the unconventional way to how human values have degraded over the past few years."

While, Some blame it on politicians and government, I blame it on us. While I sat between people who were mostly forced to do what they do.

One of the driver's curiously questioned "A driver asked me akele kyon ghoomte hoon, kisi ke saath mein kyon nai. Another driver said "sher jhund mein kahan chale hain, bhed chala karen" 

Translation :

Driver: "Why do you wander alone, why not with a group of bikers ? "
Fellow Driver: Tigers wander alone, sheeps walk in herds.


These small moments make you feel so grand and at large at your life and the decisions you make.

Truly special !

I had made a conscious choice to meet them, see if I can mix with them. Probably my test for my own self, to know if I still am human.

It's fascinating how your needs shrink from a KFC bucket to a rich over the coal cooked bread.

It was these small moments that we either overlook or fail to acknowledge in our daily hustle in the metros.

Life is simple, sweet and full of non watsapp forwarded jokes.

Then came the sumptuous dinner, some besan ki sevai cooked like kadi. It was served with bajre ki roti and was finger licking good.

After a stomach full of good meal, we had some inhouse prepared gur and I felt like a king.

I bid goodbye to the cook, thanked him and his wife for the sumptous treat.

As I walked towards my tent, I looked at the clear moonlit sky. I almost felt content, away from the city chaos, dust and hipocracy.

That's all for today, I'm tired and will retire to bed now.

~ Don't try hard to fit in, when in your heart, you know you are meant to stand out ! ~

Memoirs ~

~ A rush of memories goes by, 
And I don't know why, 
I have to re-live again, 
Go thru this never ending agonizing pain, 
Watching these love songs, 
Oh, I so much wish, I had someone to belong. ~

Dilemma

~ The dilemma,
Whether to return to a conscious state of mind,
Whether or not I wish to rewind,
The hands of time,
That move ultra slow,
As I hear hang in balance,
In pin drop silence,
That perfect beat,
As I transcendence again,
And watch myself tapping the feet.
I rewind the song,
With a thought of whether this is the place where I really belong,
I experience a head rush,
My head spins,
As I watch my fingers script my dilemma. ~

The Transcendence ~

~ All alone,
Like a stone.
Thrown in disparity,
Given away in charity,
Kicked,
Picked n thrown again,
In vain,
By the roadside.

I've seen lonesome rain
People passing by
I sit stoned,
That instantaneously minutely slow,
To the lightinging fast transcendence into the 4th dimension.

I move out of myself,
Watch myself sit,
Eyes wide open,
Mind hallucinating,
My brain almost rejecting to process that very state,
As if I could turn the thoughts as the pages of the book of my life.

That extravagantly minute moment,
As the times slows down,
And I watch my own frown.

Instruct myself to go outside,
To lie down under the open sky,
Happy to acknowledge,
That moment when you realize,
How fucking high,
U are,
Trying to find a star,
In the empty sky above me,
All so orange with the bight street lights,
Those distant screams of a couple fight.

The answers I was trying to find,
Come right to me,
I lie still,
As I take a trip through all those mind stirring questions.

Let go,
Let go of that past that haunts you.
The lock to that bag of worries,
We carry over our shoulders,
That burden, heavy ironic boulders.

I am left with a smile,
As I scribble this rhyme.

I sit stoned ~

Bare ~

~ Bare,
Nothing to spare,
Nothing to lose,
To choose.

I have a blank sheet,
With a million words hovering my brain.
So much to write without strain,
Yet it feels so messed up in my head.
Jumbled letters,
Fumbled thoughts,
Dispaired Memories.

No one ever has a comeback,
When they read the rhyme,
Every time, time to time.
No one ever comes out to calm me down,
They just stand there and frown.
I stand apart
Bare  ~

At the break of the dawn ~

~ At the break of the dawn,
Different artists rise,
Some click,
Some paint,
Some write,...
And ride,
Some brighter than the others,
But hey ! we are all brothers.
We do, what we have to,
Do what keeps us alive,
We do more than that,
To keep up with the world and survive.
Survive the harsh, mean, hypocrite world.
But at the break of dawn we rise n shine ~

~ Happiness is to find a 100 Rupee note in a bag, you no longer use and just took out to give it away. :) ~

One of these Days ~

~ One of these days,
You walked into my life,
We made promises to stay,
You came in and took my sorrows away.

One of these days,
I saw you walking away,
You disappeared into the crowd you came from,
The pathway is lit,
And here on the green grass I sit.
Watching you walk away.

One of these days,
One of these cold autumn night,
You walked away,
Into the crowd you came from.
You walked away.
One of these days ~
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~ Solitude is the best preacher ~

I Sit ~

~ I sit in a crowded place, 
And with the stupid attempt to find your face, 
I exhaust my mind.

I'm lost in trance. 
I linger for a glance. 
A message, a beep, a whisper.
Days do pass by, 
With so much hue and cry, 
I try to stay calm, 
With all the chaos around me.
My peace is gone with you.
And everything left blue.
All so gloomy and blue. ~

I 'M Power - Delhi bikers Empower women

~ I slept in such harmony, yesterday and woke up with a feeling of gratitude, that we did and we will continue to, to fight the handful crack heads, that ruin the rapport of the entire gender. Thanks for an amazing after feeling. ‪#‎bikersforgood‬ ‪#‎ridingforacause‬ ‪#‎feelingamazing‬
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Feeling Wonderful.

I was talking to someone yesterday and he asked me why I ride with a particular group, (to stay out of trouble, I'd not share the name of the group)

I told him that "I am a man of feelings." He asked me what do I mean by that. I said " if I don't feel right I don't do it."

He then replied " how do you know what is right and what is not."

I said "I just know when it feels right from within."

He gave me a big hug. It was that very moment that is so extravagant and makes you feel that you were really understood.
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~ Joy is incomplete, unless it is shared. ~
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~ It's amazing how our mind relates a song and fragrance to a place you once travelled to and can instantaneously recall the experience when you hear that song again, or smell the fragrance. Just unbelievelabely amazing ~

Cool Breeze ~

~ Cool breeze in my city,
Is so rare,
Like the sight of you.
I'm riding on the highway,
Living life my way.
With your thought now and then,
I don't know when,
I'd see you again.

So distant and so near,
Like a mirage,
So real, but never there.

I hear a million sounds,
Your voice I try to filter out.
Nothing echoes,
Through the environmental sounds.
Like a long lost forgotten song,
Your voice fills my ears.

So much bliss,
The very moment,
So much bliss,
And so much I miss.

Cool breeze in my city. ~
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Smoke Up ~

~ As the smoke I exhale,
Rises up in the air,
My head spins high,
My eyes turn pale,
I miss your touch,
I miss that smell of your hair,
Even the thought of you,
Lights up the gloomy mood,
Oh I just want you to stay,
In my mind even if that's your way.
Your wicked, evil way,
I travel each highway to find another you,
To run away from the blues.
Only love can heal me,
Love which is so hard to find,
I just wish I stay sane,
And don't loose my mind. ~

~ I dont see a point in celebrating Independence of a nation, who has just been deprogressing exponentially, where humanity is almost about to extinct, nil faith in judicial system or legal authorities, we are just free to watch extreme news and do nothing about it ~ Happy #$@$%@ @* Independence ! ~

More than a friend ~

~ I wanna know you more than a friend,
I wanna kiss you lying in sand,
I wanna walk on white sand beach,
Holding hands,
I wanna know you more than ever before,
I think that I've had enough,
But I still want more,
I'm drowning in your eyes.
It's not like I'm not visible,
Do you feel that it's impossible,
When we talk,  we don't talk at all,
Too weak to leave, too stubborn to give in,
We don't let go, we can't get close. ~

If Only ~

~ If only I could pause the time,
If only I could seize the flow of a million thoughts,
If only I could seize these words to rhyme,
I'd live in parallel worlds.
Teleport myself in a blink,
Relive memoirs of that blushful wink.
I try not to sink,
Everyone is so lost around,
No more ground,
To stand and even spread the arms,
The sands of time keep flowing,
We seize to grow,
The careless wind blows,
The million thoughts flow,
If only I could seize,
I lay frozen in my thoughts,
If only I could stop.
If only. ~

My wish for you ~

~ My wish for you,
Let there be comfort on difficult days,
Smiles to light your way,
And some more,
When sadness intrudes.
Rainbows to follow the clouds,
Laughter to kiss your lips,
Sunset to warm your heart,
Hugs when spirits sag,
Friendship to brighten your being,
Faith so that you can believe,
Confidence when you're in doubt,
Courage to know yourself,
Patience to accept the truth,
Love to fill your life ~

~ Lost !n Trance ~

~ Numb, lost, trying to figure right and wrong, 

Scribbling words listening to our favourite song. 

People walk by, 

Some laugh and other just stare, 

I don't really care.

I don't give a fuck, 

Feeling out of luck, 

The moment is just sucking me in. 

I'm trying run away, 

Trying to win.

Trying to find myself, 

Trying to find you.

Trying to beat the blues. ~

~ When Life Drops you Rock Bottom, I say "Use the gravity to gain momentum and rebound n fly higher" ~

iRide ~

~ I ride to escape,
I ride with the river,
I ride in the cold,
Even when I sometimes shiver.
I ride with the clouds,
Away from city louds.
I ride in joy, I ride in rain,
Even when a little in pain,
But its never in vain.
I feel like a lord of my own reign.
I ride with the birds,
They welcome me, they guide me through, to a place so new.
I ride for the views, unseen,
I ride, coz it makes me be a better being.~
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Day 1, 8th June. Wanderlust Teasing ~

A friend's message kept echoing in my mind. He wrote "Am leaving or Mukteshwar at 4 AM this saturday, lemme know if you want to go or the ride".

I had engagements, I thought I couldn't skip.

But my heart was sulking and the mind wandering. So I decided to pack my bag and head out.

Took a short nap, 8 - 12 and got ready to meet a biker friend. Met him then left for India Gate for a flag off for some riders riding to the pilgrimage "Leh".

I left at about 3, met my fellow rider at Noida City center and left at 4 sharp ;) love to be ontime.

We rode via, Hapur, Moradabad, Haldwani, in amazing weather and view.

Reached our destination at about 2, it was drizzling along the way, we treated ourselves with local fresh fruits, Khumani and Adoo.

The day ended at a peaceful and the most spectacular mountain view chauli ki jaali, mukteshwar, sat there and gazed at the ranges and the land far far away.

I had no plans to return the next day, my fellow rider didn't had a clue.

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~ Once you can visualize your dream, you are just one step behind from living it ~

~ When you plan for something, make sure you keep a buffer time, otherwise hopelessness captivates and engulfs your dream ~

~ If its not crazy, it ain't true love ~
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Little by little she uplifted me from the ruins,
Little by little she gave away everything,
Little by little I hurt her so bad,
Little by little she went away.
Now, little by little we sometimes talk,
Little by little we distantly walk,
Little by little I think of her,
I wish well for her, little by little.
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~ I talk with her in my dream,
I wake up to a scream.
I search for eternal peace,
I try to solve the puzzle piece by piece.
I cannot find what went wrong,
May be, she was there to help me heal,
May be, it was all by a plan,
May be, she deserved a better man. ~
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What I think either happens or happens anyway :D With great thought comes great power :)

~ In the world today, I can't show you something you haven't seen, I can't say what you haven't heard. I can just be human like they have seized to be. ~
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~ Imagine the agony of not being able to do what you really want to do. Doing something else, just coz you can sustain. Not just doing it, But surrounded by a ton of unlike people. Who don't understand you at all. They are fascinated by all the fancy things you have or do. Its what you I chose to be. Be urself, just keep it simple !!! There are no rules, no boundaries, its all in your mind. Just reach out ~
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~ It is utter foolishness to believe that things that are easy for you, will be the same for anyone else. Everyone's unique with set of capabilities which appear to be common and we can never know the efforts put in the background to achieve it. Its an individual quest, there own struggle. They chose to go through it. So do I ~
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~ We should do our bit and not worry about the rest. ~
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Know ~

I want to say more,
But I ain't sure.
If you'll ever reciprocate,
Or just hate me for telling you all that is inside of me.
I wish I could show you.
I want you to see.
I want you to be near.
I want you to curb me from this fear.
I wish you to be the one.
And you're out there,
Having fun.
Give it a shot,
A fair try,
Or may be not.
I lay,
In dispare,
In a hope,
Doped,
I X we.
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~ To capture exactly what I see, when I travel. To describe how I feel at that very moment, is never possible to do by a click or describe it in a few lines. I try to do justice and can only give a mere preview of it. We need more than a medium to express that very extravagant moment. I think it can only be experienced. ~
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~ The feeling of Gratitude, is the next best feeling after the feeling of being loved. :) ~

~ Mystery unfolds as I search my own thoughts. Words of wisdom lie in the way. They light a path I fail to walk upon.
Am I afraid, the thought resounds in my head as I type this.
Was I brought down to just do the talking with my fingers ?
Is that why I cant speak well ?
Is that why I confine myself to my sacred space. Just visit places that sooth my soul. Do things that calm me from the eruption of these volcanic thoughts.
Is that why I sleep, so that I can function in this immoral, unmeaning world that seems so real but doesn't feel that way.
I am on a quest unknown to myself. A quest unknown. ~

~ To understand and to be understood are realms of mystery ~

~ I never thought of days like these, when I could freely talk to the one, I love the most.
Knowing that she doesn't feel the love for me anymore.
Just messaging like nothing wrong, no bad ever happened.
I am held back from within, I dont wish to scare her away.
I like her holy presence, makes me feel secure.
Makes me believe that good exists in this mean and cruel world.
That there's someone as gracious as her, that can let go of the sins I did.
She talks freely and I love it. :)
I know I cant do anything, just look at her from a distant. Never touch her again.
I can write and Imagine how she is.
My mind is her cage, I dont know if I have the courage or the sanity to free her from it. ~

~ "Everything has a purpose, even machines. Clocks tell the time and trains take you places. They do what they are meant to do. May be that's broken machines, make me so sad. May be it is the same with people. If you loose you're purpose, its like you're broken. "

From the movie "Hugo"

My Thought :

~ If you loose you're purpose, its like you're broken. It makes you sad, that's why they say, do what makes you happy, that way you know ur purpose. :) ~
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~ Sometimes the silence seems to connect us, like words never could. ~
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~ Let's go back in time, When the words did rhyme. 
The air was clean, n people weren't mean.
Oh let's roll back time! When the salary was low, N no credit cards to blow. 
Rollback to the time when life was simple, n fashion included a smile on the face with a cute dimple !! ~

~ Soon our photographs that contain, animals, wildlife, landscape, countryside, empty roads, clear skies, sunsets, sunrises will be preserved in " Real Life" museums. All this will be replaced by malls and wires hanging over our heads for the purpose to hang ourselves to death, when we would see no clear sky, wildlife will just be restricted to old natgeo and discovery channel documentaries. Countryside is all being bought by the builders and unrealistic "townships" are being built upon as you read this. Empty roads are already a myth, there's always so much dust in the air, forget morning fresh air. Embrace all of it, while you can. ~
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~ We don't get time, we make it. ~
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I Await ~

~ I don't want to say anything, that I can't take back,
But I can't keep my feelings shoved up in a sack.
Irony, that I can't say it all,
Its a vicious circle,
I know am gonna fall.

I try to pour everything out,
My mind even tries hard and shout.
It says out a million words,
Some that I've already heard.
Nothing's easy,
Easier said than done.

I just while away time,
Waiting for a miracle to happen,
I know its not going to,
I hope it doesn't.

My thoughts contradict,
My heart conflicts,
My soul is stirred,
I can't think straight.
I just stay put and wait. ~
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~ When it's time, it will be done ~

~ Anyone can buy an expensive camera and a bike, you can't buy an eye of a photographer and the heart of a biker, you are born with it or without it ~
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~ Don't make rules and don't follow that anyone else ever made, you were born free, you live free and you die free, that's why they call freedom your birth right ~
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~ I'm patient n calm coz I know we'll make it :) ~